Dont You Want To See How It Ends
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THE DEPRESSION SUITE
i dont get it, but i dont think i need to
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thousands of flowers installed in an abandoned mental asylum
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“ Out of my thoughts! You are part of my existence, part of myself. You have been in every line I have ever read, since I first came here, the rough common boy whose poor heart you wounded even then. You have been in every prospect I have ever seen since – on the river, on the sails of the ships, on the marshes, in the clouds, in the light, in the darkness, in the wind, in the woods, in the sea, in the streets. You have been the embodiment of every graceful fancy that my mind has ever become acquainted with. The stones of which the strongest London buildings are made, are not more real, or more impossible to displace with your hands, than your presence and influence have been to me, there and everywhere, and will be. Estella, to the last hour of my life, you cannot choose but remain part of my character, part of the little good in me, part of the evil. But, in this separation I associate you only with the good, and I will faithfully hold you to that always, for you must have done me far more good than harm, let me feel now what sharp distress I may. O God bless you, God forgive you! ”
Charles Dickens, Great Expectations (via vanished)
I suppose I should give this a read. The only Dickens I have ever attempted was A Tale Of Two Cities… and it was rouuugh. Luckily I know to put a book DOWN when I am not feeling it. Soooon.
“Be so good they can’t ignore you.” - Steve Martin
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i’m pretty convinced one of the reasons i love steve martin as much as i do is because he looks almost exactly like my dad.
that and, y’now, he’s amazing.
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how to kiss
[step 1] open your mouth as wide as possible. make sure to stick out your tongue as far as you can, too, since kisses are like, 90% that thing
[step 2] find someone to kiss. you will know they want to kiss because their tongue will also be extended at full length
[step 3] move in for the kill
danish for breakfast
and i’m not talking about the pastry! heyooooooo.
that was a joke. i am definitely referring to the pastry. i use humour to mask my pain, or something relevant. for today it is official. my two most important people are G-O-N-E man. (well, my very most important person is sitting across the table from me, literally shovelling eggs on toast into his mouth, but y’now…) i’ve been making my peace with one being far away, and it’s helping my indifference to the second departure. in a few months, they will all be back.
(and so now i’m starting to freak out about things being all different and fucked up when they come back! my brain is all about self-sabotage, apparently)
but this is my chance. i want to learn how to be alone, no time like the present. ive been discussing the definition of ‘being alone’ with several people, and each perspective is unique, but at this point i’m trying not to put strict rules on it. how far are we expected to go? i feel sometimes as if i am Ferberizing myself. CRY IT OUT. TOUGH IT UP. LEARN TO BE INDEPENDANT. THE WORLD IS COLD AND CRUEL AND YOU CAN ONLY RELY ON YOURSELF. that kind of psychotic babble bullshit. no, that’s not for me. primates are incredibly social creatures. depriving a basic instinct purely to stand on principle seems wrong.
i’m certainly starting to ‘know better’ and understand where i draw my lines. and understand where my heart lies.
so i have to make it through the forseeable future without my best friend at my side, without the man i love, and soon without a few others who are helping fill in those spaces. but it’s okay.
…we’re all on the same journey, really…
